In different countries and places, we may be celebrating the Christmas Day today, or maybe advanced or even yesterday. But no matter how far we are all from each other, how thick the snow may be in some places; though we may come from different spiritual upbringing, there is ONE TRUTH that we all share today, it's our SAVIOR's birthday and we were all given this special talent, and that is love for ART.

To all my friends here, and all the talented PEOPLE, expressing their love, their passion, their everlasting yearning to learn more about our chosen crafts in ARTS, I warmly applause for all you're undying passion to express what you believe and for always being open to express yourself even in the most wildest we could possibly be.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
*haha*

When you feel like your summoning up the strength to focus into something so significant, so true; you feel driven to to do reach it, to lean unto it and feel its heat.
I feel so attached to learning new rhings, though part of me feels so lazy to move an inch but my mind want to reach out to the unexplained and figure it out.
I know i have so much to do right now, so much deadline to meet and and errands to check on, but I want to get some time-out and just have this chance to acknowledge how i feel right now. DRIVEN.

Yea. I feel driven to conquer what I think I can't do, what I think I can't easily learn. I feel the challenge to understand its complexity, to admit its not easy; because I know that when I discover how to fit all the pieces, it will be such a delight to finally realize what its all about. You may think I'm thinking too deep, when I'm only thinking about understanding the pathophysiology of this thyroid disease but I think it has something to do with where I am standing right now. Living in the moment, I feel suppressed of what I'd like to do. But even though I feel this urge to just stop, I don't know why I still wake up in the morning and continue to understand the complexity of my situation and live with it. Here I am, even if I like to complain on my usual morning ride to school about my classes, I can still say that I'm doing better than other. How? I'm in the first section, and I still try my hardest in all the demands there is. I have a satisfying grade, not good, but not also the highest, a passing rate for section one and I know people can see how am I trying to cope up with my studies.

Why am I sharing this? I also don't know. But for now, even if it's so hard, I feel driven to go along and sail through it.

i haven't really been so addicted to deviantart these days, not because my expectations or my excitement is fading everytime i see new photos...
it's just that, i feel so down on myself, i haven't been so inspired these days i can't get a good photo. phew!
i feel like depleting into a thin air, everytime i see other people enjoying and inspired to do something they love most.
hoo. when can i really get my inspiration? unfading.

Despite the hassler days of duties and schooldays, all the mood swings and depressive moments i had during these past few days, I've been trying real hard to staty positive and think of so many better things.

Dilemna #1:
I'm having a hard time closing the gap between a group of my friends in school. Before, I've been like a part of their group. Actually, in some way, I'm really part of it. And Unconsciously, I think that I feel the belongingness into somethings I didn't expect to built. I enjoy their company and I do feel content just spending a day with them and sharing the same school problems in school. Reminiscing those days when we watch movies, go to this High Street Mall, enjoying the afternoon stroll after school, and sharing fun moments and secrets. It's really a something to be cherished. I'm not talking about the typical all girl group. No, not at all. It's a mix group of different personalities but colliding souls. Me thinks.
But since this semester started, I'm having a hard time catching up with them, maybe because of the hectic sched of 3dyas a week of duty and then by the last 2 days of the week, we're all hyped with exams and reporting. I can't blame us all if we no longer have the extra time to go out in weekends or do things that we usually do before, but you know, at least a time to talk or chat at school would really be enough. But I don't know, it just felt hard reaching out to them. Hai, when will I be able to go back to the same moments it was like before, or maybe how am I going to accept that "change" is the current trend today.

Dilemna #2:
I haven't talked to my bestfriend since the start of semester. We've been all busy in our own activities in school. Even texting is not useful anymore, I'm busy with school and so are they.
Though I think that half of myself doesn't want to see them until I'm ready, I wish that sometimes they're there to just listen to my thoughts and my worries.
I miss them, as much as they miss me.

In conclusion, I think that one part of my messed up right now, is in the Friendship Department. Even if, these days, having no one to really understand you or just be their by your side is soo hard, I believe that once this storm has calm down; light will eventually shine on me, and hope will eventually fill my heart. Right now, one of my biggest strength to stay upright, is God. That's one of the major blessings I have, despite my gloomy situation...
I won't give up. AJA!

this is fast >3<

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8 THINGS TRUE ABOUT MYSELF:
1. i realized i can be a quiet person. Sitting quietly, watching people pass by and go through the day, makes me feel more of an observer than just a regular talker. I learned that there's a right time for everything, like when to be silent and when to be aloud.
2. i want to lose weight, but i don't feel like starving myself is the best diet option. I just don't get the point, i love food but i want to loose weight. I still think exercise is the right way to balance. HAHA.
3. i'm officially a third year college student, and i'm starting to feel the nursing course. Starting this monday, i'll have my first taste of night shift and rotations. HAHA
4. i still feel confused of what i want to be in this life. Dramatic as it is, but yes, like the "The Alchemist", i think i'm still trying to discern my own "Personal Legend".
5. i'm trying so hard to save up, and be thrifty. For the fist month of my first sem back to school, I'm proud to say, I've already save P2000 from my allowance. HAHA! i hope is grows more.
6. i don't think i'll be taller than I am now. GRRR! I want to grow taller, if only I could. Height is something. HAHA
7. i'm dying to attend extra lessons, subjects that i do love or activities i really wanted to try like dance lesson. I always imagine myself dancing, feeling the adrenaline swaying and beating sychronized with every movement. It's great.
8. i'm nothing without God. No matter how gloomy or sad i feel when the rush of stress and confusion comes in, at the end of the day I still solemnly connect to my Savior; saying with heartful thanks and sorrowful experiences I had. Life won't be life when God isn't by your side.

Well, I hope you'll rediscover a little of yourself again, even in 8 simple numbers only.
Relive. Reminisce. Revive.

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